In June 2009, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. At that time our sons were three and five years old. Living 1,600 miles from my family in Iowa and 3,250 from my husband’s family in England, I took control of the spin of my story by writing and sharing a journal with family and friends for a year.
I didn’t want anyone to imagine me green and dying. I didn’t want pity. I wanted people to know that breast cancer would have some of our days, but not all of them.
Scientifically speaking, I had Stage IIa (one level up from Stage I) Invasive Ductal Carcinoma in the left breast. This is the most common type of breast cancer and classified as Estrogen Receptor Positive (ER+) and Progesterone Receptor Positive (PR+). The cancer had gone only to the sentinel node.
As for treatment, I had a lumpectomy, three surgeries to get clean margins; chemotherapy every other week for eight cycles; and daily radiation for six weeks. Now, I’m still on the ten-year plan of a daily aromatase inhibitor and monthly Lupron injections which shut down the manufacture of all estrogen and progesterone in my body.
Below, you can read my Staying Strong Journal from the beginning. To move through the journal, scroll to the very bottom of each entry, then click on the title under "Newer Post." By the way, don't miss my Chemo Camouflage Gallery at the bottom of this page!
My hope is that this disjointed, mostly un-edited journal makes at least one other person facing cancer smile.
Staying strong,
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August 2009
- Aug 9, 2009 The News Aug 9, 2009
- Aug 12, 2009 Home from the Hospital Aug 12, 2009
- Aug 14, 2009 Quick Update Aug 14, 2009
- Aug 20, 2009 Going Strong Aug 20, 2009
- Aug 25, 2009 2nd Surgery Aug 25, 2009
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September 2009
- Sep 1, 2009 Clean Margins! Sep 1, 2009
- Sep 13, 2009 Pet Scan Normal Sep 13, 2009
- Sep 17, 2009 The Plan as of 9/17/09 Sep 17, 2009
- Sep 18, 2009 Weather in Iowa and Angels on a Pin Head Sep 18, 2009
- Sep 20, 2009 Plan: a nice quiet Friday night Sep 20, 2009
- Sep 24, 2009 Another Surgery Scheduled Sep 24, 2009
- Sep 25, 2009 3rd Surgery Sep 25, 2009
- Sep 30, 2009 Benign Spot Sep 30, 2009
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October 2009
- Oct 1, 2009 My Ode to Facebook Oct 1, 2009
- Oct 4, 2009 New chemo start date: Friday, October 16th Oct 4, 2009
- Oct 12, 2009 Commemorating Will’s 6th Birthday & Liam’s 3rd Forever Family Day Oct 12, 2009
- Oct 13, 2009 A week on antibiotics Oct 13, 2009
- Oct 16, 2009 Day One Done! Oct 16, 2009
- Oct 21, 2009 Six days after 1st chemo Oct 21, 2009
- Oct 23, 2009 Day 8: Hermit in House Oct 23, 2009
- Oct 27, 2009 Being bionic – the installation and use of a purple titanium port Oct 27, 2009
- Oct 29, 2009 First New Stage:Flipping Out Mom & Dad with the 3- to 4-year-old Schizophrenia Act Oct 29, 2009
- Oct 29, 2009 Second new stage: Exper-ee-menting Oct 29, 2009
- Oct 30, 2009 25% of chemo treatments are now done! Oct 30, 2009
- Oct 31, 2009 Hair Liberation Oct 31, 2009
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November 2009
- Nov 1, 2009 Chemo Camouflage Nov 1, 2009
- Nov 4, 2009 Washing Away My Hair: 6 days after 2nd round of chemo Nov 4, 2009
- Nov 5, 2009 Keeping Track of Stuff Nov 5, 2009
- Nov 8, 2009 Minor Changes Nov 8, 2009
- Nov 8, 2009 Warm Peas in a Pod Nov 8, 2009
- Nov 9, 2009 PJ Clash Nov 9, 2009
- Nov 9, 2009 Perspective: a quick glance back to put the present in focus Nov 9, 2009
- Nov 10, 2009 Power and Prayer Nov 10, 2009
- Nov 13, 2009 My wicker life boat Nov 13, 2009
- Nov 13, 2009 3 down 5 to go! Nov 13, 2009
- Nov 16, 2009 The Wig and the Real Hair Nov 16, 2009
- Nov 17, 2009 Frustration Nov 17, 2009
- Nov 18, 2009 A Mish-Mash Nov 18, 2009
- Nov 19, 2009 ;'') Nov 19, 2009
- Nov 20, 2009 Medical Expenses Nov 20, 2009
- Nov 22, 2009 An MRI Girl Nov 22, 2009
- Nov 23, 2009 Rocket Fuel Nov 23, 2009
- Nov 25, 2009 Grace Nov 25, 2009
- Nov 27, 2009 Halfway done! Nov 27, 2009
- Nov 29, 2009 Granddad's Pre-Sermon Prayer Nov 29, 2009
- Nov 30, 2009 The Layer Cake Nov 30, 2009
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December 2009
- Dec 1, 2009 Turkey and Fire Dec 1, 2009
- Dec 3, 2009 A Fowl Story Dec 3, 2009
- Dec 7, 2009 Black Dirt Dec 7, 2009
- Dec 9, 2009 Wednesdays Dec 9, 2009
- Dec 10, 2009 Flow Dec 10, 2009
- Dec 11, 2009 Impersonations Dec 11, 2009
- Dec 14, 2009 “My Hair Will Fall Out” Dec 14, 2009
- Dec 16, 2009 Strong Urges Dec 16, 2009
- Dec 17, 2009 Dancing with a Foreign City Slicker Dec 17, 2009
- Dec 20, 2009 Chemo Fog Dec 20, 2009
- Dec 22, 2009 Jingle Bells Dec 22, 2009
- Dec 24, 2009 Capturing Christmas Week in Quotes Dec 24, 2009
- Dec 28, 2009 Back to Work Dec 28, 2009
- Dec 29, 2009 Hungry Cow Mentality Dec 29, 2009
- Dec 30, 2009 Iowa Trivia Dec 30, 2009
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January 2010
- Jan 1, 2010 New Year’s Resolutions Jan 1, 2010
- Jan 5, 2010 Hodge Podge Jan 5, 2010
- Jan 7, 2010 Clashing PJs? What PJs? Jan 7, 2010
- Jan 9, 2010 The Warrior Princess Jan 9, 2010
- Jan 10, 2010 Hodge Podge Jan 10, 2010
- Jan 11, 2010 Spring Jan 11, 2010
- Jan 12, 2010 Cussing Jan 12, 2010
- Jan 21, 2010 Tidbits from December Jan 21, 2010
- Jan 22, 2010 Friend or Foe Jan 22, 2010
- Jan 29, 2010 Awaiting the Launch Jan 29, 2010
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February 2010
- Feb 3, 2010 Where have I been? What happened to daily posts? Feb 3, 2010
- Feb 4, 2010 Roosters Feb 4, 2010
- Feb 6, 2010 Six Hours of Questions and Answers Feb 6, 2010
- Feb 12, 2010 The Radiation Plan Feb 12, 2010
- Feb 22, 2010 Chipmunk Cheeks and Eyebrows Feb 22, 2010
- Feb 23, 2010 Mouse Trauma Feb 23, 2010
- Feb 25, 2010 Never Say Never Feb 25, 2010
- Feb 26, 2010 A Penny from Heaven Feb 26, 2010
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March 2010
- Mar 4, 2010 Going for the Glow Mar 4, 2010
- Mar 9, 2010 Baby Chicks Mar 9, 2010
- Mar 10, 2010 Ritualistic Comfort Mar 10, 2010
- Mar 16, 2010 Golfing with Frank Mar 16, 2010
- Mar 21, 2010 Calling Grandmas Mar 21, 2010
- Mar 28, 2010 Hair Moments Mar 28, 2010
- Mar 28, 2010 Liam's Tree Mar 28, 2010
- Mar 29, 2010 Sniffs Mar 29, 2010
- Mar 29, 2010 F is for Florida Mar 29, 2010
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April 2010
- Apr 4, 2010 Every Ending is a New Beginning Apr 4, 2010
- Apr 9, 2010 Little Miss Forgetful Apr 9, 2010
- Apr 21, 2010 In Living Color Apr 21, 2010
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May 2010
- May 2, 2010 Sharp Blades Spinning in Dark Places May 2, 2010
- May 17, 2010 In a Vein of Honesty May 17, 2010
- May 23, 2010 Symptoms and Side Effects May 23, 2010
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June 2010
- Jun 13, 2010 From My Fingers to Your Ears Jun 13, 2010
Chemo Camouflage Gallery
These photos are of me from 2010, toward the end of chemo treatment for breast cancer. While breast cancer left me feeling powerless in many ways, I did not want to look like a woman going through chemo. I didn’t want pity. I wanted my family and friends to see “Linda” when they looked at me. A little colored lip gloss, dangly earrings, new glasses that were the color of my old hair, and a wig were all part of my Chemo Camouflage. My eyebrows and eyelashes had fallen out, so I relied on my glasses to take their place. This Camo made me feel better, putting a bit of power back in my court.